Pleading

Poem

The whispers chained me to the bed

Again

Her voice

Calling my name

Over

And over

Again

The desperate whine

And then

Her pleading eyes

Oceans of secrets

That I made her keep

Her skin

Translucecent

In the moonlight

Fingers

Once soft

Unable to hold my fists

Back

Now talons

Ivory

Shards of bone

Her defense in the afterlife

The afterme

Moisture leaks out

Beads on my forehead

Pours down my cheeks

Everytime she's here

And she keeps coming

Every night

But "I'm sorry"

Falls on deaf ears

Just like her pleas

Of "stop" "no"

But she pleads no longer

Instead it's me

Shaking voice

Telling her "go"

"Leave me alone"

Instead she stands

Half shifting shadow

Images play in my head

Of her blood

Coating my fists

But I don't feel like me

I feel like her

It's her pain that pounds my heart

I feel the aches

Bruises on her face

I just want to make it stop

The scream comes from the depths

Dragged through desperation

Restraint

I can't sleep

Never again

She won't let me

"Why?"

I sob

Cracked open

She smiles

The darkness grows

Solidifies somehow

As if my pain

Makes her more real

"I didn't kill you. "

But I know

The images show the truth

I didn't hold the razor

But I put it in her hand

She chose our bed

To soak the sheets

Crimson defeat

That's why she haunts it still

I washed it until my skin cracked

More concered with stains

Than the life they once held

No one ever knew why she did it

That's why she's here

Again

She wants me to tell

Give her the closure

My silence prevents

I look in her eyes again

So hard to face her

But I have to

I killed her

That admission

Even in my head

Changes her

But the eyes are wrong

Reflecting black pools

The soul I see

It's not hers

Something else wears her face

Her image wavers

Like a bad signal

The shadows grow

The voice warps

A high pitched cackle

This isn't my wife

It's a monster

I ball my fists

Pulse spiked

I don't deserve this

For her pain to be used against me

But she just laughs again

Like breaking glass

"She prayed

To escape you

Now

You'll never escape me"

The talons scrape against flesh

Digging trentches

In my chest

Sharp twisting pain

But it's not blood that pours

It's black

The true contents of my heart

Seeing it I know

She's not the only monster here

This was written to be in the collection that's talked about here.

https://open.substack.com/pub/inaroom/p/hallowtide-files-the-gheeldyn-request?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=5uzw5d

Hylia R. M. Greta